Dear Bizi,
I like my therapist and I trust her.
But she thinks that even though the sleep may have started as a psychologial problem it may have turned into a medical problem by now. She said something about the synapses having grown new paths.

Dear Nikko,
I tried melatonin. Nothing.
And yes, it is hard to be tired during the day when it seems that the rest of the world is a wake and functioning. Maybe many of them are faking it too.

Dear Mymorgy,
My mother used to insist that we were in our beds by 9:30. She wanted "lights out" and "kitchen closed" so that she could go to sleep. Then she got up early and she and I had fights every morning because I slept as late as possible and was almost always (but never actually) late for school.
Night time was time for staying up with my father when he was home to listen to his classical music with him or to listen to him talk about his book that he was reading.
Day time is for efficient people who like to make lists and run around like they are important. I could skip all that.
Sleeping in the day feels luxorious and decadent somehow. I feel lucky when I can wake at 1 or 2 or 3 pm with out anyone yeling at me.
Well, this isn't the whole thing of course, but I like the night.



I was so happy that the pdoc understood immediately what I was talking about when I said I don't go to bed. He said that he and I have medicated the moods pretty well. He said he can't medicate my getting off the computer (or whatever) and putting my body in the bed.
I need to do that for myself. He said I can reset my clock in 10 days. I thought that he was being a bit optimistic but I liked hearing something that almost sounded like a plan.
He explained alittle bit about the brain and sleep.
And he told me a little about his own sleep hangups -- he likes to fall alseep watching Letterman even though he ends up with poor quality of sleep with the TV on.

Mari