I am having a hard time trying to figure out what the point of living like this is. For what? To be happy that occassionally I am able to recieve a hug without wanting to cry from the pain that it caused. Should I be happy that at the end of the month I officially lose my job and insurance? Who is going to hire someone who can only work sometimes? Someone that forgets 90% of what people tell them? I just so t even know why I should try anymore.