someone please explain
why is it i have a feeling of doom
it engulfs my entire
i feel it when it comes on
almost like a panic attack
so strong so strong
i hear from my shrink
your doing great eva
oh my i must feel better
i pushed myself to breaking point
real smart
no one will understand the pain this entire body
feels unless they too are going through it
my goodness
still in my forties still kicking butt
in every way
haven't had a mans touch in years now
just a hug
a lousy hug
yeah i'm lonely
to go through this alone
no help to get up out of bed
or out of a chair
or getting dressed
to wash my back
to put their hand on my back
in a tender way
to have my sweet spots kissed
with the softest touch
this i doubt will ever come to fruition
i vehemently dislike that my entire body hurts
to get ready to get out is more trouble then its worth
i hate how i feel
and i'm the only one who can do anything about it
me