I had always had anxiety and depression till I found a drug called Lamoctal...It worked wonders for me and I felt like a new person re-born. After I had a brain ruptured brain aneurysm, My depression returned with a vengeance. I don't know what to do...I don't enjoy life anymore...I have no feelings of joy, happiness, excitement or looking forward to being with friends or family events. Sometimes I ask myself,, what's the use. I'm just existing. If I don't get the help I need, I fear I will take my life. I just don't want to leave my children, knowing I'll never see them again and for being selfish to creating their pain of never seeing their mom again. I don't' know what to do...Some drug experimenting can be worse then better and I've been down that road before this. When we found the miracle drug Lamoctal, I thought it was my guardian angel..now it no longer works. I'm at wits ends here, can anyone make any suggestions??