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Originally Posted by eva5667faliure
for it is all pain
all sadness
all crap hitting the fan
i don't want to be the go to person
i want to go on
i am lost in this depressing world
i have no desire for sadness to plague me first thing
waking up all hours of the night
crying feeling like turd
hands and feet do not function upon waking
my fingers they are such a necessity my feet
upon standing i be doing the shuffle
too sit on the potty
is pain as squatting has become more difficult
my physical life is declining as the hours move on
my life prior from my becoming ill
I WAS Wonder Woman
guess what the operative word is
capable of doing so much
now
it hurts to fart from the back up
burp from my neck down
heck to speak of such things
sick
really sick
i qualify
i just do not want to be that negative mean WOMAN
why have i given up
i want to be happy
just not happening
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Eva,
With all that's going out with your children; it's understandable to be down; but; and the "Big But....is smiling little Eva. When you get a chance will you please post a picture of her. Those "beautiful dark eyes". I probably don't have it right; but I know she would call you something like MeMaw.
Hang in there with me my dear friend. Some of the meds may have lost their effectivenes. Meds for depression at times, actually can add to the depression. It takes quite a while to get the right dose; even for just a shot time. How much longer will you need to be on the Tamoxifien??
Love & Prayers,
Gerry