I SOOOOO understand the feeling. I am so tried of passing every test, most are painful too. it really is draining. I have a tentative dx of nTos. Ortho wont say for positive as this isn't his area but is sending me to St Louis to a tos specialist. Should only take a few months for insurance approval to get a date set.

Some days aren't as hideous as most. I know that I will pay tonight for the actions I took this afternoon...stretching exercises. I feel so guilty if I don't do them but gosh the karma attached is a bear.

My kids are home for the holidays and its been wonderful and taxing. I am learning a lot of hard lessons. Seems that I might be a bit stubborn and not a quick learner. But the boundaries seem to change daily so its hard to keep up.

We have passed 10 months now. I know that isn't very long to some of you guys but its enough time to grow a human being. I am really scared that this will be forever.

Oh well, Merry Christmas to all and to all a speedy recovery!