well the days of a new year i upon us shortly
the cold is here to much to do just to get ready to go anywhere
my eyes open
find i have slept in fetal position all night
then to stretch out my body
take my morning meds with hot coffee
to get it in my system as quick as possible
and strong coffee with the headache i have
every morning doctors orders
rather than taking otc pain relief
and then i'll pinch the skin between my my thumb
and pointer finger
try it sometimes
especially when it's kicking
my gut is empty
waiting for my belly laughs
i do not know what happened to me
in every way
does this mean the devil gets a piece of me
it is not him i seek
it is my Almighty Father with that worn flannel shirt
that has the smell of true love
my angels who are my protectors
as i ask the angels assigned to watch over
each of my family members

i do not know why i am in this terrible
funk

well the years are coming and going
hope to still have the opportunity
for love in my life from a human being
who is open to getting to know and
come to love who i am
in Jesus name
who can make anything happen

the happiness of my children
priority

yet i don't want to be forgotten

Father i love you and must trust in you

those who feel as i do and cannot shake it
don't do anything at all
there Will be another day love
me