Well poopy, FFM....not fair, not fair, not fair.
As my old Neuro used to say "Ya do what you have to do". And after he scrapes himself off the wall, I just pushed him into, he repents.
I know this is going to be so hard to do, but, for your own sake, do it, you must.

I will be here for any moral support you need, anytime, anywhere.
Sending prayers, vibes, candy cigs (remember those?)...anything you need to help you through this.