Isn't always easy ,rsd get the best of us , don't give up!!! We have rough days and all many times comes together at the same time ,we don't understand why is this happening ??? But always remember to try more and again ,you will Finf the right dr and the right person for you even if now seems impossible .
I also had a bad time staring few Days before Xmas I got one day so bad to the point I wished to Die. I Quenstined all what I believed and Asked who ever is in heaven why I needed to suffer such of horrendous pain and also asked why people who suffers this much can just pass and don't wake up next day?? I was mad and give up all what I ever believed and one friend called me coincidently and suddenly out no where told me ... Life is weird in many ways we believe in many things and also deny others ,we stop trying because we are tired and give up but somehow things fits in the right place for the right reasons and many times we have to wait so long to see the reasons when you see it you will undertstands it meant to be that way even when you things is worthless there is a great value ,you learn to suffer and learn to overcome ,no many can see a light after the darkness ,you do .
I was thinking whatever you don't know hell for sure but in Realiity it was right , He distracted me from my pain and suffering ,sudenly I was thinking in all bad moments I had and how I overcome and try Again but did not mean I wasn't mad , I was mad because no dr want help me before ,no dr knew what I had those Days ,I got Mail from my ins wc denying all my meds and treatments ,got a seroious allergy reaction for no reason ,my ex job called me to fired me again !!!! I was diagnose celiac positive and Xmas was around the corner and I was sick !!! And I was thinking for first time in my life , Do I really deserve this ??? No ,I don't neither do you !!!
Yes we know Darkness as my friend said but we knowing pain can see beauty in a Cloudy day ,wait and look more around and let the darkness vanish ,you will see a shiny day soon ,your day will come and will be the best day ever just keep trying and have more faitht than ever ,you are not alone and who walks away from you is not more than a looser , you deserve and are the best always know and keep that in your mind,you are the best and no one who walk away will ever ever ever be better than you
Learning is hard because we had the hardest school in life but sure we had all graduate with pride . Keep walking proud of who you are and who you have become , you are a wonderful woman and sure the stronger ,you will find the help you need ,I'm sure the storm will pass ,I will keep you in my prayers and hope always for the best ,also I want to add ,you are so bless by having your mother at your side ,remember always her and know she is the reason for you to believe
Love and hugs your way,Jesika .