Some interesting/hopeful developments:

I was feeling physically icky this morning, probly from the tramadol. I had a craving for something salty, and had a sliver of sharp provolone. It somehow felt really good. Then I went back had a bigger piece of it, maybe an ounce. It gave me no trouble, and I had not even had my morning dose of stomach med yet!

I think the saltiness might help, somehow?

I've noticed a few times now that prosciutto goes down remarkably well -- better than roast turkey or chicken and things you might think should be "lighter". Prosciutto is extremely salty. (It works out because it makes me thirsty and I drink lots and lots of water, lol.)

Besides, I eat a banana every day, yesterday 2, so I am getting a bit of potassium and magnesium to balance out the salt.

Whatever. At this point, it's like, if something goes down well, it is my friend, and I will eat it!

(Don't worry. Even though you guys are my friends, I promise not to eat you. Oh dear. Perhaps not much of a promise, coming from one who has the tendency to bite people's heads off every now and then, and without much reason. :crazy)

Also, I don't know but I think the tramadol lifted my mood a bit. It might be temporary, but it was a palpable reminder that feeling better is possible, and even within reach. It also made me a bit racy-headed so I don't know if I'll want an antidepressant. But as a quick parenthesis, that part was nice.

waves