After my and my husband's 15 years of dealing with Parkinsons, I still have to ask for help in accepting what this disease has done to him. He has learned to accept the many limitations he now deals with. I, on the other hand, find it difficult to face them. I tend to make excuses for his tremors, his balance problems, his trouble eating without spilling his food, etc. Our friends overlook these problems; why can't I? I feel embarrassed for him (maybe more for me) when we are around people who don't know what he is dealing with. We have been married 55 years, and I know that he is the same person I fell in love with all those many years ago. I still love him, but it is so hard to see all the things he is no longer capable of doing. I am going to talk to my pastor and see if prayer can give me some help in dealing with these feelings that I can't seem to accept. In the meantime, this venting is a beginning; it's the first time I have admitted this problem to myself.