as your interactions by conversation is how are you doing with the sense of loss? That was what made me want to scream into the wind. I still bubble w/anger sometimes but it is getting better. A smarter person would know the stages of grief. It is a subject that is so deeply personal, I fear hurting your feelings even more. Your life is not what it used to be and I had to examine what it was that I was feeling. Coping mechanisms come naturally and I guess that is where the old saying "Time heals all wounds" comes from. Wishing you the best, in my most apologistic tone,Ken in Texas.