Jeffandjohn - (and Jim too),
I went across and read your Anxiety/OCD Post to get background. I know you specifically said you cannot, and that is why you posted here, but you MUST see a Doctor.
In 1983 I had my first full-blown, run away, Panic Attack with no warning, no pre-existing condition. I was too scared physically to confront my illness for a long time. It did not go away, it ruined my social life - luckily I had a caring American employer who understood, or that side of my life would have been ruined as well. Until I got treatment my Anxiety spiralled uncontrollably, and you are likely to find the same.
This, as you are finding, inevitably leads to Depression, and each feeds off the other. This must not go untreated.
Ok, I know it's VERY hard. Your home/family/job/health life all contribute to how you are now, and I do not expect you to march into the Doctor's office tomorrow and tell them everything. Start small, set yourself attainable goals.
Does your parent know of your OCD/Anxiety struggle? If not, and talking triggers attacks like me, write a letter. That might be a starting point anyway.
Read a few News stories in the morning. Take a 5 minute walk. Read the Job Vacancies columns.
Next week watch the News. Take 10 minute walks. Register with a Doctor…
All small, easy steps you can take to get you the help you need to get your life back and repair your relationships.

Dave.