i have to also let you know
as the country is not serious
about mental illness
add to that physical ailments
the kind like you say
invisible to another
other than my bloody pain
and i find myself talking in a excuse like manner
never wanting to go there
my depression
without a doubt
a collective intrusion
i want so badly NOT to
feel like this

i am now on my way to apply for
medical insurance for
my sixteen year old
and granddaughter
appointment has been made
will return
and pick up where i left off
much love to the world
i am ill
this much i know
i have family with me
there is no option
me