today i have music on as i write
somethng i never did before

last week i contacted my oldest friend
Maureen
Yugoslavian
we pick up where we left off

today i called a lover who i also know
as long as Maureen
we went to grammar school and high school
together
he wanted to know what was the honor of the call

as he has no clue it
my last intimate time
with him or anyone
he has no clue
our last time together
I say this not to be vulgar in anyway

we were watching SNL
though we weren't intimate
on that night he kissed my right breast
kissed me good night let himself out
i had no clue of my lump yet
he has no clue how memorable
everytime i look at the beautiful
picture of myself and right breast
so i never would forget
brings back memories

when i called him and told him
about having them both removed
this man called me night before surgery

I'm glad I called
and he answered for if just
for one moment in time
he then called the next day
called to see how i was

that was a bit more than two years

glad i did

we have a long history just because of time
and it's been in bits and pieces through the years

divorced
a father of a son

as much as i don't want to feel

i'm glad i called

we will be together in the future
so he would like that
and yes
just because at a very tough time
as a woman
him knowing of my body
called
the man called
him alone

and he doesn't know
how it has affected me
in a very good way

i'm glad i called

and he will touch me
and bring me back in time

if just for another moment in time

he seemed happy
and i did too

this i would very much like to

FEEL

me