this is a gift to me
thank you

with a heavy heart
i have reached a time in my life
all that is good seems so faded
i remember thinking as a young
strong smart mommy
who was born to kick butt with
love and kindness
i am a passionate in everything i do
even in my worse of times
it is a drive that comes from somewhere
to be honest i believe it is my anger
way back when
all that matters to me to this day
is that my children would like me
especially for who
i have become
it is in the afterlife i want to be remembered
she was the best mom and mimma ever
or at most
she tried her very best
to make a better life for them

why does this mean so much to me

i had to be the best i could
for
my children
i this sick mind
divorced at 24 with 3 babies
i did all i could to give THEM a happy life
and i would be the most happiest
just to know i had something to do with it
i always taught them
money in this fast mode Country
thaught them be happy in what you do
and that be your riches
to have the liking's of my fellow human
the love of my family

and so sad to say
this is not the case as they have
become adults
down right mean
to the bone
i have lifted my family when down and out
not to ask for anything in return
never ever
sometimes embarrassed to think
of some of the things they have done
yet i miss and wish them a happy life
even if i don't get to be a part of it

i hope as the better weather comes along
i too just like them
can move along and just maybe
i could meet someone special
just for me

until then i have my friends
here to hold me
wishing me well

my illness
the physical part
shall not ever get better
if by only a miracle
Jesus Christ
you carried your cross
therefore
i will carry my cross

if anyone here were to ask me
do you feel the love
that is a undeniable
yes

so for your uplifting love
i wish you all a happy healthy joyful life
in what i expect from my adult children
with any luck
it will be sooner than later

"WORDS" THAT COULD EITHER
MAKE YOU OR BREAK YOU
me