i think i am likely depressed - i like the idea with the whiteboard. i tried to create a schedule for myself but found that i would start deviating more and more. the deviation would upset me and i'd give up on the whole thing.

i'm not sure how to really deal with not being able to do very much and i'm not really sure that anything i do helps my recovery. i take the vitamins that people talk about here and eat healthy, don't smoke or drink. my inability to affect my own outcome is very difficult to swallow.