dear Lara

so tired
still no plan
only had to fight to have
me removed from a plan
that just did not make any sense

Lara to tell you how many people i needed
to repeat my story to
and why i should carry the burden
of a healthcare company that doesn't
have any of my doctors working with the plan

just to get up and freshen the bed
wiped me out
why do i wake so sad
why can't i get with the program
why can't i move even the slightest
without pain

my body yearns to be touched
to be loved
a hug from my granddaughter
or my daughter
to be touched
hurts
why
dear Jesus why
where is everybody
i'm not dead yet
why am i here

i'm not the only one in this state
how
why
i do not feel good
i do not want to feel
what i feel hurts
i don't want to hurt any more
my body 54 young
my brain feels 35
my body is dead

the human touch
it can heal
sad
me