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Old 03-07-2015, 03:54 PM
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I always loved my beer, experimented with drugs, still smoke pot... But I'm bipolar and my first tip-off that I was going manic was that I would stop off for a beer and end up coming home after last call...

I was drinking (heavily) on my meds, and the incidents became more frequent. Not good for a marriage. I was drinking at home too, but my husband didn't have a problem with that cuz he's an arm chair alcoholic. We got into a lot of fights over it, and I ended up leaving him.

I had side effects from my bipolar meds, and went off them. Then I went on a real tear for a couple of months, hitting the bars most nights or drinking at home alone. I did some things I'm not proud of, including getting a DUI.
I was living with my father in a bad situation, that didn't help.

I ended up slitting my wrists and OD'ing. I spent 3 days in the hospital, then was forced to voluntarily commit myself for a couple of weeks.

I've reconciled with my husband, but after a month dry I've been having a few beers on occasion.
I don't drive. I have court on Thursday for the DUI and am going to plead guilty. I spoke to the prosecutor and he said he would recommend a shorter suspension and lower fine, but it's up to the judge. I'm nervous.

I know I shouldn't be drinking because I'm an alcoholic, the meds, court... but it's hard...

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