I think change whether for the good or the bad is particularly difficult for one who is bipolar. My apartment has changed so much for the better it is really giving me anxiety now...I can't maintain it without help. Now when something is out of place it screams at me whereas before when everything was out of place, it was a much quieter scream.
I find it is a relief to throw things...or a release...most of my memories are painful anyways....it was a real horror to throw out clothes that were still good but that no longer fit.
I wish your sleep issues Mari would get easier....I don't think practically all people get it. So many people take basics for granted.
Bobby