I had dealt with headaches, back pain, etc. for several years; but still could lead a pretty active live. Since I had my spinal fusion/laminectomy over 8 years ago the world that I had known rapidly started to change. Continuing spine pain, along with Periphereal Neuropathy pain, Narcotic meds to help with the 24/7 pain, leading to bladder surgery with additional medical issues. I felt the depression deepening and not wanting to pick myself up. Just wanted to hid and cover myself under the blanket as a safe haven.

Thankfully, I realized all this would only lead to additional disability and depression which by my own actions was bringing me down. My biggest enemy was my dwelling on what I could no longer do instead of being grateful for what I am able to do. I still can do laundry; maybe a little slower and takes a few extra days. I can still put some meals together; not like the ones I use to enjoy making. I felt satisfaction at being to accomplish a whole list of things that were now done just differently.

The biggest accomplishment was/is acceptance of my life as it is now instead of dewelling on how it once was. Of course, there are times when I feel a bit down; but don't stay there for long. Since it takes me longer to accomplish certain things; I don't have time to be on the "pity pot" for long. Also found other areas I now enjoy that I hadn't even thought of before.


Gerry