it will hurt me
especially if the message
and lesson by not contacting my
eldest child
someone i entrusted
and never thaught would screw me
out of paying for purchases "I" yes
this idiot
is being screwed with my dell account
balance over 2 grand and a monthly payment
of $72 a month
her purchase was for Christmas gifts
4 computer tablets
and because i was very surprised
at how she left my home at her last
Skyline featuring a well known poet
her name escapes me at the moment
is when there was a confrontation on
the mess she left for her sister Corissa
knowing that being a major problem
we are trying to work on "her laziness"
and it is this blowout i hear her say
"you shouldn't have had any children"
those words cut me up into tiny pieces
the one child i watched over there
always whenever
it will hurt me terribly
because it is a tradition she stole, crushed
into nothingness
it will hurt me terribly

how can i wish someone a happy birthday
who didn't want to be born
and they are not young teenagers
she is hitting her mid thirties
so much taking
and nothing in return
i do not speak of material possessions
but our Spiritual growth as mother and daughter
making this choice with a heavy heart
a heavy heart
me