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Originally Posted by EnglishDave
Dear Eva,
Children are cruel and heartless like that. Of my Step Children, one is distant and uncaring, one is the nastiest, most selfish person to her Mother and myself, the third is sweet and caring. They were all brought up the same by both of us. Ignore the spite, they need you more than you need them - try turning your back on one of them once when they come, pleading.
As to your brain being 35, mine is 23 in some things. I crave humour, have it on all the time. It doesn't make me happy, just takes the edge off the darkness. Comedy is a pleasant noise to block out thoughts. Live in your younger brain.
Always remember, whatever happens there, you are loved and appreciated here.
Dave.
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dearest Dave
your beautiful
the words you put together for me is so on the money
i have very wonderful beautiful hearten people of such
overwhelming stories
those of us that suffer pain that brings me to those dark
places
it's one thing not to have a partner in life
but like yourself it hurts to be touched no more hugs
my granddaughter is the one that expresses empathy
in such a meaningful way
they have become cruel
but the cruel mouth off from my eldest
the one who had brain surgery and the ten years
of depression as we went through her epilepsy difficulties
my job to be there for her all my vacations days my personal sick days given to her over the ten years
her high school sweetheart exhibits early his lack of work desires
hanging on my daughters skirt and her SS benefits
they are living with the in laws apartment in his room as a kid
with my sick dog
i listened
i washed her body
i changed her bed sheets giving her three fitted hospital
sheets so she wouldn't sweat from the plastic hospital mattress
the nurses loved coming in the room it smelled so fresh 19 days
i slept in a chair
there were other hospital stays where if i weren't there
the two seizures while she was going to the bathroom
and because her seizures are all the same as far as the body
contorting her one leg would posture knee trying to reach chin
immediate fall
sure it was a job i had to help my child she was over the legal age but she wanted mommy
and mommy was there i made it happen
that you would have someone with you at all times
oh what did she blurt out after her last Skyline session
"it's your job you wanted to be a mother"
this is true
Dave you have managed to help me through a difficult day
it's her birthday
a tradition i started as they came into this world
i honored and would give them the recognition by calling them
each year the time they entered the world
today my child took that away from me
yes it was my decision not to pick up the phone
yet i'm told i shouldn't have had children
like i putting a note in their lunch box everyday
all through their lives they always had the comfort
of knowing i'll always be there
i need to be a little selfish
i am responsible for my happiness
and having words from loved ones here
is a good boost
a great boost
for your comforting words that wrap me
like that big flannel shirt my God wears
sending you a gentle
and a
day
for you and your life love
and to all a
me