I do know what you mean about hospitals. I can't stay in one as long as they want me to when I go in. I have panic attacks after a few days in them. My PCP springs me from them before my time is up. He tells the Surgeons if he has to come to my house to take care of me he will. I get hysterical in them I have also been overdose with Methadone in the hospital before.

I was just thinking with you being in the shape you are in, I think you need really good care to get better. It does depend on how good the hospital is also. It sounds like you have had your share of bad experiences in them too.

As far as the stimulator, we are going to turn it up tomorrow evening. I am scared. I have put it off now for over a month due to what it's doing to my voice and breathing. I can't yell at anyone because my voice keeps going down. LOL It goes down every time the machine goes off which is 30 seconds out of every minute. I still have to have it turned up 3 more times.

I lost my magnet that turns it off and Susan found it today. I swear I can't keep up with anything. I have wiped out the color on two tv's so far.

As far as the depression, so far it's not helping but the CFS and everything else has made the depression worse.

I got an appt. with the Immuneologist next Wed. I hope they can maybe find what's going on with me that makes my body shut down.

You have reason to be depressed and we all go through it so don't worry about how you sound, believe me I have sounded worse at times.

I hope that hospital bed is more comfortable then the ones in the hospital. That's another thing I can't stand in the hospitals. With the TOS I can't lay in one any length of time.

I'm glad you are out where you can talk to people and not be alone so much too, maybe that will help you with some of the depression.

Hang in there,
Ada