Lets see how I can summarize my life for everyone. I had my hearing 3mo's come may and I am going insane clawing at my mind attempt to figure out what is going to happen.

Awhile back I had a life changing event happen. I lost my partner to a police shooting and my home burnt down. This all happened before my eyes and needless to say I suffered severely mentally for this.

Before this incident and well since I was a wee lad I had psoriasis which turned into psoriatic arthritis which I had no idea was possible. After investigating a knee that I though I sprained I discovered I was riddled with bone cysts and other issues I have been having is all from that.

Well I managed to get by with this for a few years as I was selling on eBay and money was not so labor intensive to get. After I lost everything I ended up in a mental hospital and now the final diagnosis was/is Sever Mental Illness.

With that I decided I need to get disability because now I am screwed physically and mentally. I was denied the first time and then gave up. A case worker at the "mental heath" here which is a whole story on its own. I found an attorney, I was happy!!

It was time for the hearing and the attorney told me there would be a VE there for the arthritis. Well we go in and its a VE for the PTSD. He agreed that I was not fit for work and then the judge went onto question him about the arthritis. The VE would not comment on any of it as he was not the specialist.

Well the judge got upset and then turned to throwing out the PTSD diagnosis. He started to go through and READ news articles from google about the incident and tell me that "if" this didn't happen I wouldn't have PTSD. He was saying I caused it.

Here is the shocker!! My attorney made my disabled date over a year!! after that incident happened and was basing it on the Arthritis. Needless to say I had a episode in the court room where everyone in the SS Office heard me and even the security guards came to comfort me. OHH and my attorney also quoted from the ss doctors I seen that I was severely impaired by both conditions!!

My attorney asked to talk to the judge off record and I went out. My attorney told me just wait, don't worry and I would hear from the judge in 90 days...it then went down to 30 as we were leaving..

So here is my adventure with disability and I am only 30 years old! So as you can see I am nervous as hell! I gave up on attempting to get medical help in this town as even the rheumy doesn't understand the disease and I am sick of spending 30 mins when I see each being preached to about how I am obese and I need physical therapy.

I am trying to move on with my life, I have so many things I still want to do before I end up in a wheel chair but I get depressed as I have no way to get employment as my body is shot! So what do I do for income? I have a partner now but his walmart earnings isn't enough. Just the enbrel is 3000$ a month another reason I can't work I lose what little medical Arizona gives you and how can I afford that? I can't even do my ebay selling to make money as I don't have the energy to work more then a hour/two a day on house chores! OHH ANDDD In Arizona you have to be found disabled to get medical BUT that decision does not weigh on SS disability??

Suppose this turned into a "My Story" post then a asking for help. I always welcome comments/discussions....plus I suppose I must include I am a hidden epileptic and that clock is starting to tick faster...