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Originally Posted by eva5667faliure
so like i said
at a point i in the past two years
rarely will i go and when i do it is my home
group
my character defects
do arise during my worse of times
pain anger resentments all alive again
and it is in my fellowship that reminds me
how i live on a day to day basis and how i handle myself in the day and know how very important i have remained sober
I NEVER GET HIGH ON MY PILLS
i take them as prescribed and my pain specialist, shrink
and oncologist all know of my use of cannabis and are understanding how it helps and are okay with it
my fellowship also knows
and today i will work with my friend willing to drive me to meetings but also offered to bring me home
just for today
i will make things better
by becoming the person i was
Awesome
just for today i will
LET GO AND LET GOD
AS I COME BACK
to thy self be true
me
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Eva,
I am glad to learn you will be attending the must needed meetings. Do you have a sponsor?
You may remember, my adult daughter (cocaine addict) has been drug free since 1997. Without these meetings; this would not remains as it is. She is well aware of this. My daughter often speaks at meetings. Her first sponsor (passed away) was a very important figure in her life. My daughter still repeats what she learned from her. At the present, my daughter has another wonderful sponsor.
All you wrote is so on the "spot". This is an area which I have not read your previous posts being so intense and so aware ( not only of pain) of what is needed for your recovery. Not drinking is not the only solution; but as you have written in these past two posts, you seemed to have nailed what you need to do for self improvement.
I pray you will continue with the meetings and the fellowship which is so important. This may be the "key" to help relieve some of the "dark hole" you have been in.
Love & Prayers,
Gerry