Know now I have lived a life of circumstances
and it sucks
I have no one else to blame but myself
I made the choice not to let anyone come inbetween
me or my children
The children I fell in love with each and everyone
And now as I had gotten ill it has put my life in a black hole
No laughter no fun no love no happiness no future no desire
no family of who I can trust my own children steal from their
mother I cannot swallow
And all for what
All of it
For what
I have no one to share or lean on
No one will want me in this state
I can't even stand myself anymore
All take forever to do anything
That I don't even want to bother anymore
I want to be left alone and just go away
None of my pains arose without reason
None of my sadness is of my wanting
I want not to feel
I am tired of crying every single day
I am so frightened
And so angry over so many things out of my control
And can't find any room to shove it all
It is to overwhelming
While life goes on
Me