Crying and yelling is exhausting and ramps up a lot of neurochemicals you don't want all the time right now. it also makes our loved ones miserable.


Some of what helped me at first was a lot of distraction until I was at a place where I had enough info and could start to deal with things. watch a movie, read a mindless novel, play Angry Birds or Chuzzle. Anything to keep your mind from going into OMG mode. I also did a lot of praying, still do, for myself and others, for the world, for the environment. It is a positive activity I can do any time, no matter how bad I feel and it helps. I am praying for you too...right now and every day.

Sending Healing Love, Littlepaw [/QUOTE]

I know the crying and yelling is ramping up my neurochemicals I just can't stop. I WANT TO. that's why I feel so childish...why can't I just stop? I do it anywhere and everywhere. Grocery shopping, banking etc etc. it's EMBARRASING. that's why I was asking about a rehab therapy type place. the way I am responding and acting is ridiculous.

I try to use distractions but two minutes into doing anything and I can't ignore the pain anymore. Going out in public sends me into a crying panic attack because I see women pushing their baby strollers and living such a happy life. I can't handle that, it's supposed to be me!

My aunt has been praying for me multiple times a day. I try to believe too, and say my prayers, read my books but why hasn't my healing manifested yet? so it's hard to have faith.