i wish i knew what to say on these things.
i have looked in on a couple but have never actually left any messages.
i'll try with my story so far.
i lost my dad in january to an aortic aneurysm,seems like yesterday. lived in a daze ever since.
we had/have our own family run company. i have to be back at work as without me our whole extended family dont have jobs, cant pay the mortgages etc...
try as i might i still feel i am just turning up waiting to go home and hide....
its fathers day over here in an hours time and i would love just disappear but then i have my own kids and that would not be fair on them.
i'm sorry i am drunk, not quite stupid drunk but i am working my way there.
i know it doesnt make things better and all the other rubbish but then at this split second in time its all i want to do.....