I have gabapentin and instructions on how to start! I hope this works. The stinging, burning, needle, heavy, paralyzed feeling is intense. I have started to get muscle spasms and cramping along with the twitching... This sucks.

Still mentally in a whirlwind. Still don't think I will be able to cope even if Gabapentin works. My family is in shreds. My parents are fighting all the time, my dad has turned to drinking to cope. My husband is depressed, sad, feels helpless, hopeless, angry etc, trying to learn how to adjust to this new crappy life for us.

hope for healing is gone. hope for improvement is gone. hope to stop progressing is rapidly fading. I feel like my body desperately needs a massage. but I can't stand for anything to touch me let around rub me.

Something is being missed! I know it. Yet, I can`t doctors to do anymore testing (other than my biopsy later this month).