Hi (((Steash))) and welcome.

I kind of shuddered at the thought of you getting really drunk! Only because I can't drink much and I pretty much bypass the happily drunk stage and go straight to sick and hung over! I hope this morning you are feeling okay.

Embrace your kids and be thankful for them. Losing someone is so hard and leaves a big hole in your heart and soul. Those first holidays and 'markers' of rememberance are so difficult in the beginning. As time passes, they get better.

Time heals all wounds, yes that sounds contrite, but it's also true. Have you thought about talking with a grief counselor or a therapist? My therapist saved me, literally.

I don't think I've ever been to more than one of the games in here. I usually hang out in the suicide forum. Maybe there are people in the Depression Forum who you could lean on as well. You can lean on any of us in any of the forums!

We're not doctors here and try to support each other the best that we can. It's a wonderful group of people, that you will see, I promise.

I hope you find your way back here soon.

Hugs and much love,
Nancy