I guess what I meant in simpler terms, from what I keep reading, is that stopping alcohol would stop further deterioration if it is indeed the causative factor. With that being said, I'm at the bottom of the barrel here. I've read through posts and threads looking for something to hang onto, but ultimately I feel I'm stuck with this. What a great feeling to know your selfish alcohol drinking behavior has destroyed your body. I take responsibility for that, as gut wrenching as it seems. Not drinking right now is all I have. I'm not opposed to meetings and will do what it takes. Thanks for the kind responses. Day 12.