Thanks for the hugs. I guess I can now say I tried their way and hopefully they'll give LDN. If not it will be the second doc to refuse. Neuro already said no citing it as a "controlled substance" and wouldn't discuss which shows how little is known about LDN since it is not controlled at all.

I am looking into finding an acceptable PM. I've been reluctant since I don't want much they offer but this may be the only way to get LDN. Crazy. Then at least I might have infusions as an option too. Oh the things one has to go through!