Thanks Enna70,

I understand not being conditioned to receive praise of any sort in childhood. That IS a good percentage of the problem. What one deserves and what one struggles to accept are on different levels. Especially when you have a built-in Mental Illness, telling you all your life to see yourself negatively. I have problems with previous negative events still being crystal clear in my mind and impacting on my general Mood. Yes, I have had Therapy about this, it is a symptom of my illness - and being betrayed by Therapists means no fix.

However, on the Forums - except on rare occasions like this when I crack and 'share' - I strive to be only positive, beating back my Demons, shining a light from my Darkness.

I do cherish the kind words, the positive feedback that means some of my time on here is worthwhile, and I make sure to Dedicate the positive Kharma when I Meditate. Perhaps I will live my next life as a 'Happy' slug!

As I wander around the Forums I always enjoy reading your kind words and advice to other Members. This being a personal Case.

Dave.