I'm very sorry to read how you've been doing.
I agree with your mother about not just relying on psychiatric treatment.

What dose of Risperidone are you on now?
My son took it for quite a while when he was young. It used to be almost automatically dished out to people here at one time for people who were experiencing complicated symptoms of autism ... sadly.

It was very difficult for him to taper off the drug despite how easy the doctors said it would be. I wonder if some of your symptoms are part of your withdrawal from the Risperidone... then again it depends on the strength of your dose. In the end we literally shaved the tablets.