Canagirl
Hope you are coming back here periodically to view the support you have received here.
Hang in there and hold on ,
Dear Canagirl!
I too, have had the thoughts you are having.
Although fairly new to PN, I am certainly not new to severe pain and other extremely uncomfortable and frightening and seemingly unbearable health symptoms/problems.
All I can tell you is that I "Held On" - and that is what I will tell you.
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Hang In and Hold On, Canagirl !!!!"
And
Perhaps you can try to find some distractions to take your mind off your body. Difficult, I know. For me, music is cathartic......
Also
Don't leave before the MIRACLE HAPPENS!
Hugs and good thoughts going your way.