Canagirl, don't sell yourself short...you are doing it! Yes, it's DIFFICULT and you are going through a rough patch .... remember this is NEW for you...you want to be the wonderful person you were before the pain...now you have to be the wonderful person you are with a new twist....like everything else it takes time to adjust ...your train of thought needs to change; you are worth something but your body is telling you, you need to put the oxygen mask on you first...getting help asap....keep us posted please and before you make any rash decisions PLS PLS PLS talk with the forum first....