Hi todayistomorrow,

Perhaps look at it like this. Many of us across the Forums can no longer continue the profession, either temporarily or permanently, that we had before the issue which brought us here. Your skillset has obviously been diminished, so you need to take a step back until recovery allows you to return to work.

At present it sounds as though you are risking more than money, and that is never something to gamble with. Many, many of us have had less than stellar support, or the total breakdown of relationships due to the changes in us. And we are not blameless for that outcome. Don't let added financial stress cloud matters when you need to find a way to communicate, maybe through Counselling, all the ongoing issues.

Dave.