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Originally Posted by ger715
Eva,
The depression only adds to being bedridden. It's, at times almost seems impossible. As Dave suggested and I know from my own experience he is right.
I force myself to try to put on eyebrows (only have partial so kinda draw a finish to them). Then, add a little blush on my cheeks starting from mid ear to balls of cheeks. After that, do a little finishing up with hair and a little hairspray.
I feel better already; not frightened when I look in the mirror.
Go to meeting..... or even try a counter at a restaurant for coffee and a little whatever. Frequently the counter person will strike up conversation. If you often go at same time, you'll get to know fellow people at counter as well as the usual counter person.
Eva; please don't give up; you can do it...push, push, push; don't let anyone hold you down; especially yourself. Also, for a little while you won't focus on the pain. Please try!!!!!!!
You know I speak from experience. You know I have to fight the days when I just want to stay under the blankets and hide, all the while hoping, praying the pain will at least lessen. Then....blankets push back and force myself out of the bed. Of course, I do have a cup of coffee to help start the ritual of another day. For now....there's is another day.
Love & Prayers, 
Gerry |
My dear Gerry
I mean I am bed ridden because of all the
work I have done around the house while
everything else was and is still going on
Cleaning the floors rearranging closets
scrubbing and scouring the tubs and toilet bowls
My hands never replenished in its sick way
putting up the privacy wrap on the terrace
My body a true cookie crumbling
I will find a way to post my mylogram
My entire spine is deteriorating
as many others do
It just revealed so much
RSD and neuropathy my hands and feet
keep me awake for the past two weeks
The change in weather
My body feels so much pain
Everything you write me you understand I know
I need human contact
With the world
Gerry I cannot stand on my feet on the morning
The most sleep I have been getting is four hours at best
Do I have the ability to get up to relieve myself
without pain
the fibromyalgia on my whole right side of my
back burns like a blank
The constant tingling not the good feeling
but the kind I want to scratch my skin with
I depressed being depressed I cannot get out
for I am trying to recuperate
Just not happening quick enough
And then I think
What the hell am I doing to myself
Only things do not get done by themselves
You know
The depression is there
It's the crying I'm sick and tired of
The crying has got to go
I just cannot stop
Hanging on
And talking to God and Eva or Corissa
and this community is what I have
I know you care what happens to us
It is just so tiring
My mental state is at stake
Hoping you are well and taken care of
I am blessed to have very special persons
here
Love
Me