my dear friend Gerry

i have no choice but to leave her clothes
the babies laundry can go every two weeks

thank you for understanding

my shrink calls me yesterday after i called
medicare having received an EOB telling my shrink
wasn't being paid for services rendered on certain days

i find out that my private insurance from my previous employer
wasn't void from the system
i was assumed to still have private insurance

so all taken care of
was instructed to contact any doctors i have seen
and to explain if the doctors were not paid to

posting so i do not loose this be right back to finish

resubmit bills after ten business days
he calls and says that i have been duped

i say why would the person who works for this non profit agency
not have my best interest at heart

he repeated and said
you've been duped
i don't know of the company
Care Point Advantage

it is a marriage to Medicare
but it know is primary
and my red white and blue card
is secondary

well bottom line issssssss
he is not happy with the payment
he receives for services rendered
and continues to go on and say
get ready

i can still dispense you alpratazam
generic form for xanax
for anxiety

i was floored to hear that first
as if its the meds is the issue at hand

then i tell him why is it ALL my other doctors
are working with CarePoint

the next thing he says
its has to be a Hudson County thing
insinuating
that Bergen County is for the rich

i then came back with well now
my oncologist not only has a office in Hudson County
he also has a office in your neck of the woods
and i have been seen by him in his neck of the woods
i was mortified

silence

so the next thing i tell him
none of what he was saying made sense

well it's all about payday
hes not happy

so all the time i spent with him
mean and meant nothing
i will have my pain doctor dispense the meds
and decided
not
not to do therapy again
i invested so much time with him
talked about the past and had hoped to heal
the little girl inside of me
i'm disgusted felt dirty
as if he never listened
does this hit home with anyone
i still am cold
also duped by him

i posted my myleogram
done a Hospital for Special Surgery
New York City
and a few other ones
that show the hemagoma that
is at my sweet spot
my forth emg report
today a crappy day
the babies mother made it difficult
love
me