I never experienced this myself,but have a friend who does. What i
admire about this post,i sorry i'm probably saying all the wrong words.
But you sound so desperate for help,and what i admire, is that your
pain might bring out others who have the same problem and relate.
My friend choice and still is hide alway,afraid and ashamed. I'm
very proud of you,your asking for help,and i hope you get it. I not
sure how to help but i'm willing to listen. Good luck and many blessings
So many kinds of pain,i'm sorry,you going through this Sue