Hi Txxxrho, I really hope you are able to overcome your anxiety about death. I also lost several close family members while I was quite young, so I think I know the type of emotions you are trying to work through.

I see that there is a book that is currently available on Amazon. It is titled “The Fear of Dying: How to Overcome the Fear of Death in Order to Fully Enjoy Life”, by Juri Hansen.

I cannot give this book an actual recommendation, as I have not read it myself, but it has very good customer reviews (4.9 out of 5 stars). It can be read on your PC or Kindle, it is brief (only 24 printed pages), and it is inexpensive ($2.99 Kindle).

You may want to check it out to see if it is something you might be interested in reading.