depression is something i suffer with
and in isn't just one kind

my granddaughter
had a visit from mom
the visit took place
on the veranda
earlier in the day
her mother called
a civil conversation
about why i couldn't allow
her dad to see her
he is dealing drugs
and my daughter lives with him
it is the mothers apartment
and she fears her son
enough said

by the time her mother came
it was late afternoon
nearing evening hours

got all the makings to make a sock
puppet
then i'm asked if she could extend
her stay for Eva

i hear her crying
i call her in my room
and asked her what was wrong
she tells me her mother won't play with her
because she fell asleep
i call out

she proceeds to tell me
she was tired
and there wasn't anything
wrong with her sleeping

i asked her to leave
she became violent in her movements
my youngest was home she is seventeen

oh goodness
so much more
but as best i can get it out

here is when i asked her to leave
blurts out in front of her
keep her
that's what you wanted anyway
twice
asked Corissa to please see her out
as i came back to my room
gave her a bubble bath
divert as best i could

she calls my youngest
tries to explain it away
but she told her sister good

TODAY

she calls this morning
both parents talk to her
Corissa handles talking with her
as i am in a failing way
and emotionally has consumed my
brain the past few days
the weather is killing me

i am burned out
every bloody week-end from
the constant chaos she is causing
it is affecting us
myself Corissa and Eva
it's becoming frustrated
just for today
she was told why she and him
cannot see her
just for today
gave them the opportunity to
let them do the right things

in the mean time
please leave us alone

i have two who need me

i am so tired and depressed over
so much turd
love
me