dear friends

today is not a good start
my tears make me sick
i hate every tear that comes
operative word here really strong
the weather couldn't be any more poopy
for this knocked down broken body
the weather should be much better
we will make a trip to the pool
yet today must pass
and i don't want to feel this way anymore
to keep pushing is tiring
no reason no rhyme
why bother
or even who the fudge cares
i remember being a little girl
i never seen this life ahead of me
i can still remembering
at 7, 8, or 9
figuring what year it would be at
certain ages
it seemed so long ago
would freak out

granddaughter just walked in
she is acting nurse
saving
be back

got a needle in the arm
i feel better of course

today i already contend with
left over stuff from my youngest
and with her da da being sarcastic here
got her a new phone
i'm laying under it right now
it got to the point where we
i thaught
was changing
i feel like such an *** when i jump ahead
and think it's getting better
and yes
it does rattle my nerves
when he does things like that
and i'll go along
i can't get it for her
and i in the end left with nothing
Corissa broke mine
and the sink is filled with pots and dishes
she was on a roll
as i was at a neighbors apartment for a brief
moment
upon returning
and she cooked herself a pot of rice
now i think all understand the point

tried reaching out to my son and eldest
with a very important matter i needed them
and i can't get a return call
i'm sick
and it just sucks
just for today
me