Hello everyone new here need support forgive me if my writing is all messed up I'm new and going thru so much my mind is in circles and racing like no tomorrow. I truly just wish. I could hide in a soup can and not come out right now.

I suffer from a lot of conditions but right now the main ones are depression, anxiety, ptsd, manic, rapid cycling, bipolar, massive depressive disorder, well anyways. Everything was fine no problems. I was doing semi good till. I got triggered by something small and then it lead to a spiral effect and then it got bigger and bigger and I can not stop thinking about things. I feel like everyone is out to get me and can not trust anyone. I go to doctors appointment every week have tomorrow as a matter of fact.

I called thou on Monday to see if. I could be seen early and was pushed to the side mind you. I have been going to this office for 3 years and they get paid good money from me well that ****** me off more on top of of why. I was already upset. I then been trying to deal with things the best that. I can on my own all by myself but its hard with no sleep hardly keep waking up all over this paper that came in the mail from SSA thinking. Im going to loose my SSDI where they ask me the question on the short for if I work or if my condition got worse this is my first time getting it ever and first time ever getting a form since.
I only been on disability for a short time. Im just so scared they say I would hear a answer in 90 days and its only been 21 days and well Im waiting. Im so afraid and then I feel my doctors office if I did loose my SSD it would be because of my doctors office they would do it to me because of one person in the office who hates me she would work against me I feel she would do it to me Im so sick right now I just needing support and I try to get help and it back fired on me sorry if this makes no sense