Oh dear one....to go through so much at such a young age.....don't beat yourself up for feeling down. We all need a lift once in awhile and you are smart to reach out.

My prayers are definitely coming your way and one piece of advice....find just one thing in your day that makes you feel good. There are volunteer jobs where you can call homebound elders who live alone. I did this for years and had an adopted "Grandma". I called her every day for 5 yrs just a few minutes to say hi. I got more out of it then she did but it made us both feel less alone.
It was yrs ago via the Red Cross and it was called the "R U OK" program. Do anything, write poetry about how you are feeling and post them here....so many folks can relate. Do meditation...many guided imagery meditation on you tube.

Thinking of you and sending prayers,
Diandra