oh my god the seventies
never uneventful
those years
bitter sweet
this weekend was uneventful
until my granddaughters mother
began to start her crap with her sister
who is doing her very best being in her life
it is not a easy life for her
as her life started with a mother and father
that care only about living a corrupt life
and wonder why i cannot allow the contact between them
i just don't know what to do anymore
i am trying to make everyone happy
and it's just not happening
i i should not have to do it anymore
it doesn't matter

we got to see the fireworks
the baby in awe
she would shout
my heart just got scared
when they bang
priceless

went to the pool the one nice day
of the three
my sister came
it was a good day out
my first time out

been on zonagran for week nausea nausea nausea
this is only on 100 mg
do i notice any positive change
no
not yet
logging everything

go to OBGYN tomorrow way over due
as is mammo
a must for my child
and a chance to speak to him
about a new situation that proposed
itself
trying to find correct doctor for diagnosis
endocrinologist is my best guess with all my homework
strange with the internet
when one looks for informative material
and a doctor to go to is hard to find
weird
though i made a logical guess
and will be curious what obgyn will suggest

my hormones killing my mood
on top of my depression
of being depressed of situational problems

a sister advises a other to be successful if
she is going to cut herself to do it
right
get the picture
i am just
curplungket

no one gives a fart
not happy
i am making sure others are
happy
no one paying attention
my granddaughters mother is killing me
whatever is left
she takes away
me