Mark,

Depression did predate the attack, but was not predated before the first one. it started after I was beaten in 2012. It has spiraled out of control though. Its come harder and worse, which was why I went from prozac to the viibryd and the seroquel. They're stronger medications. I have only been on the viibryd since february or march. and the seroquel since may. I had to change and up dosages because suicidal ideations, self harm and other stuff. My therapist is just that. A therapist. I talk to her because no one else needs to be burdened with all the stuff going on inside. My FNP here prescribed the ADs.

I just sit here and wonder. People who have only seen me since the incidents, they think I am some hateful person. I used to be a good person. I had so many things I wanted to do. But now... I can't remember anything and feel like a 100 year old lady with alzheimer's. crazy, right?