I understand your frustration. When ones mind start misbehaving, it can be very troubling. Do you have access to a medical doctor, maybe a neuro-psychiatrist ? A FNP is stretching to be effective with your struggles.

I had a bad time almost 2 years ago after a severe trauma. I was put on Celexa and Zyprexa. It was a lifesaver. I went off the Zyprexa after 2 months and the Celexa after 8 months. I am now taking 100 mgs of 5-HTP and 200 mgs of L-Theanine every morning. Plus, I need the 2500 mcgs of B-12 I take daily.

I understand your struggles. I have been assaulted resulting in a personality change. I have endured other traumas resulting in PTSD. Add some PCS and the walls come crashing down.

Do you have family nearby ?