I have been doing my best to accept the new me, but I keep getting new symptoms tacked on so I have to readjust to another new me. This process becomes exhausting and leads to a lot of anxiety and depression.

I do appreciate you explaining the best way to increase the chances of recovery. I guess I'm just paranoid of being hit with new symptoms each month, which has been the pattern the past 5 months.

Trust me, when an improvement comes along I am pleasantly surprised by it. This is my life for now and I know that. It's just hard for a formerly active student to be bedridden essentially most of the day.